Thoughts on missionary?

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Matthew 28:19

 During the Holy Ghost After Party, they had certain ministers appointed to pray over people during the altar call. I was down at the front praying to myself & felt a hand on my back as someone started praying over me (I didn't get to see who it was) until about 5 minutes ago their words didn't click. 

They were prophesying over me saying I had the spirit of Esther (A book that happens to be my favorite!!) and that I had a heart for my people & was set apart to help save my people. They were pleading God save her people! Well honestly until I started telling my mom about what had happen and what they had said, I thought my people meant my family but now standing back I see the big picture. 

For the past year missionary work has played on my mind & heart, I was talking to a friend of mine about our main goals in life & told them I wanna make a difference not a huge famous, look at that hero difference but a difference in a child, a village, a person. I prayed that the Lord would set a specific country or area on my heart & I now know where I need to go. To my people in Romania, another friend of mine went there on a mission trip & the pictures & stories broke my heart but the difference they made over there pieced it back together. They had the chance to help build homes for people living under makeshift tents built out of blankets, share the love of Jesus & have revival through an interpreter. My people are the Romanian people, Lord I pray that you make me a servant that you open opportunities to help serve my people. Everyone keep me in prayer during this time.

Testimony

I'm thinking about adding a section to my blog for my testimony & maybe leave it open for other people to leave theirs as well, I'll let you guys know when cause 1. I gotta make sure my writing is clear so you guys get the most out of it as possible and 2. I gotta figure out how in the heck to add a interactive section! haha If anyone can help me out with that I'd really appreciate it!!

This weekend.....

Wow!!! What a crazy weekend!! (well technically I've been gone since Thursday so whatever word there is for that....) I left at about 4 am Thursday for Richmond VA, my uncle was preaching at a revival there and my whole family and I have become close to our "Church family" down there so we go  whenever we get the chance, it was an amazing time in the Lord!!! There was 5 Holy Ghost filled services plus one late night Holy Ghost After Party! (More about that later) My uncle gave an amazing message as usual, as well as the other ministers including Gerald Crabb! Whew! That man can preach the walls down and has a sense of humor that will have you on the floor with tears down your face laughing so hard

Gerald Crabb!

But I gotta warn you, when your spirit gets built up so much the devil finds another way to bring you down. Well he decided to attack my flesh, Saturday night I was sitting in the hotel lobby full of everyone that came in for the revival & my stomach started churning...I barely made it to the bathroom in the lobby before I...lets just say got sick! haha! I went to bed shortly afterwards & was up about every hour sick, I get very acquainted with that bathroom floor! haha Church started at 11 that morning, I was so weak I had to lay in bed in between trying to get dressed. My parents offered to take me to a walk in clinic but I knew the devil would love that so I powered through and not only made the service but got a blessing from it!! So many things happen this weekend I feel like I can't contain it to one post so you may see another post here or there about a story this weekend, one thing I do have to say I took note of to tell you guys of is Saturday night the worship leader sung a song that no exaggeration knocked me off my feet, you may have already heard it but it was a first for me, Its called I Held On Until The Storm Was Over it talked about how we don't need to be perfect or "good" because its not our works that makes the difference anyways we just need to hold on, it was like a cloud drifting away from the sun. I saw things so differently, I beat myself up so much because I feel weak if I mess up or make a wrong choice and it was like God confirming that I don't make the difference Jesus does. So just to encourage anyone that feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, it's not! Jesus Christ took your burden, walked it up that Hill and nailed it to the Cross! I wish I had video of the song to share but I can't find a version that's just right, when you hear it live nothing afterwards sounds how you like haha But I encourage you to look it up because you might enjoy a version that you find (Share the link in the comments if you do! I'd love to hear it)

Now the fun part!!! I honestly don't think there is words to describe how much fun I had at the Holy Ghost After Party! Something amazing happens when you get around 50 young adults that love Jesus and having fun together! The guest speaker also happens to be a Christian rapper so we went hard for Jesus that night!! It went on until after midnight, he sung a few of his songs that were everyone's favorites. They also had regular worship before his message & during the altar call, the message was about how Jesus tore the veil he had a veil set up during worship showing how we were separated before Jesus came down and bridged the gap. All in all the extended weekend was more amazing than I could ever describe, I wouldn't even take back the illness if it meant taking back the blessings!

Hope you enjoyed this long post haha Leave some love & as always be blessed!
Xoxo Stacie

Asking For Patience....And Getting It.

 Now when I pictured a "Christian Blogger" I always pictured a girl with perfect curls sipping tea out of her favorite Scripture mug, with her bible open beside her notebook that's filled with artistic doodles & sayings.....And then there's me. As I sat yesterday trying to pretty up my blog a little, I realized that's more fantasy & what I was doing was more like reality....at least for me, what I was doing was counting to 10 so I didn't flip over my laptop because I was so aggravated trying to figure out what all that HTML stuff meant....with leftover cheese fries sitting to my right. Sure there was a candle & a little book with its pages artistically folded into a cross, so you would think I would try to suck in their creative & calming presence. But nope, those greasy leftover cheese fries was more my style at that moment. I guess you could say tempers run in my family (generational curse anyone?) but that's when looking back I should have been asking for Gods peace so I could strengthen my patience, see I always pray for patience but well the problem with that is I don't have the patience to get patience...You know what I mean? Haha I'm learning that God doesn't always use big grand moments to strengthen us, sometimes it's those moments when we just have to stop & choose to have patience, to have grace even in the middle of this messy crazy life

Galatians 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

God gave us the gift of the Holy Spirit not just for the cool Spiritual parts but as a whole, the Holy Spirit in us produces fruits but we have to nurture & prune ourselves to see the full tuition of those fruits. One of those fruits happens to be patience, and an important one at that. Almost every other fruit requires the fruit of patience, in fact their all entwined into each other, so don't think you can have peace without love or faithfulness without self-control. So I don't know about you but I'm ready to break out the gardening tools & start letting God do what He does best!

I'm in love with this illustration!

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Be blessed, Stacie.

Remember me?

Wow, it sure has been a while....I could lie & say I've been finding myself....maybe Ive been saving up all my experiences to hit you with one powerhouse post but.......that's not true....I've actually lost myself a little bit more than when I started this blog. In the beginning I started this with the hopes of becoming one of those awesome overnight bloggers that knock peoples socks off but that obviously didn't happen. The experiences I've had since I left here haven't been all that good, there were some highlights....I got to stand next to one of my best friends as she married the love of her life in a wedding that was completely God centered

               Blowing the shofar at her wedding to welcome the Holy Spirit


But even those good moments were marred. The wedding was in Indiana & on the way over we got a call that my cousin had passed away at age 27. He left behind a wife & baby girl, so while there were good moments, this year has left me searching. Searching for answers, searching for meaning. I've honestly felt like it's been a year in the wilderness, but let me tell you in this year of wilderness I've got some of the best CHURCH I've ever experienced. So I'm keeping it as a reminder that even in the dessert God won't leave you thirsty.

                                               See I wasn't lying ;)


But to end this post I think I've come back here looking for my calling. I know God's ready to reveal it & I'm hoping here is where I'll find it hiding.

So until next time keep me in prayer & be blessed...Stacie

Thankful For The Tears

Wanna know something odd that I'm thankful for? My pain, all those nights I cried "why me", all those days I felt alone, all the wisdom of situations I didn't want. I'm thankful for every drop, because now if someone asks my advice or calls me crying "why aren't I good enough?" I can tell them what I found out the hard way, you are good enough! Sometimes people are good for you & sometimes their bad & if you only thank God for the good people you are living a shallow life. Because growth doesn't come strictly from the people that encourage & build you up, it comes from the people that tear you down & make you rebuild yourself.
If you've never experienced the bad, how can you appreciate the good?
Those nights you spend alone build you up, they thicken your skin, they deepen your relationship with God. When you have no one to turn to, He's there. Why is it some people hit rock bottom & then look up & decide to follow God? Because they went through the bad & now appreciate God for all He says He is. He's not just God in the good times, He's not just God in the bad times. He is the God of ALL. In every circumstance, in every minute look to Jesus.
“Let this encourage those of you who belong to Christ: the storm may be tempestuous, but it is only temporary. The clouds that are temporarily rolling over your head will pass, and then you will have fair weather, an eternal sunshine of glory. Can you not watch with Christ for one hour? “~ Williams Gurnall

Church time! With a little love mixed in

Sorry I didn't post yesterday, I drive 50 miles to church so church is an all day thing lol Church was beyond perfect yesterday. I attend The Father House, my pastors are from South Africa & if you wanna find a Godly couple so much in love, look no farther than these two! They make my heart melt, no joke.

             (Seriously, look at how he looks at her! *swoon*)

 It was all about Godly marriages yesterday, a personal favorite of mine ;), they made little graphs to demonstrate the difference between how Hollywood perceives relationships vs. a Godly relationship. I went ahead & made one up on paint to show you! (You're welcome)

                            (Its not pretty but it'll get the job done)


Okay so you can see the difference obviously, Hollywood builds the relationships from the physical & up which means it's built on a point that can easily topple over (as much as I love beauty, beauty fades my loveys) but see how it builds the most important factors last? Which means their too heavy to be the top layers, they have to be the foundation. God has to be the foundation in a relationship & the rest follows suit. If you wanna hear the full sermon check it out on tfhny.org
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